Changes Made, Transformation Happened

Change. We all endure it whether it be by choice or by just simply growing up. Transformation. We all have the choice to transform into the person we want to be. You put change and transformation together and chances are you will accomplish anything you set your mind to. You may be thinking, “How does a 23-year old college student know this???” Well the answer to that question is that I am living proof that when you make the decision to change and transform into the person you are striving to be, you will achieve your goal.

This is not my typical post of something that I have recently went through involving agriculture. I decided to change it up just a tad and share my story of how I have transformed into a stronger person in the last few months. I will share with you a list of quotes, song lyrics, Facebook posts, tweets and personal experiences that have helped me in my journey in becoming a young woman who loves herself, her life and who is not afraid to admit to herself when she is not getting what she deserves. It is my hope that maybe this post can serve as an inspiration to others who are looking to become stronger, more self-confident and someone who sets a good example

Obviously, throughout life, change happens.1187242_10201768235829654_1437411353_n(See picture to the right. Yep that’s me as a little girl and then a picture of me today.) In the words I like to use, it truly is complete craziness how much we change on the outside over the years. Obviously there’s about 20 years missing; however the point I am trying to make is that change happens sometimes that is out of our control. With that being said, the main point I am wanting to discuss is the change we can control. We can, in most cases, control how we think, how we look and how we view ourselves. I am the first to admit I have been simply horrible in all three of these areas. I have not had the confidence and self-worth that I should have. I let myself think I was never good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, etc. I basically hit rock-bottom in regards to how I viewed myself from the inside and out. To this day I do not know what caused me to switch out of the “poor,pitiful, loser me” funk I was in this spring. Over a duration of a few weeks, I was able to completely turn my thinking around. I realized I deserved better. I realized that I was in control of my own happiness. I was in control of me. I made the decision of turning my life around because I have been blessed in more ways than I can mention to be thinking the way I was. So I constantly prayed to God for guidance, strength and support that I can make a change to transform into the young woman I wanted to be.

The first change I began to work on was getting back into shape. Let’s face it as humans we want to feel like we are attractive. I hate this natural trait, but it 20130903-181418.jpgi20130903-192225.jpgs there and from what I have learned, it will never go away. So I was not happy with the way I looked and decided to begin running to get my body looking the way I envisioned. There were some roadblocks along the way- going weeks at a time without being able to tell a difference, getting sick, etc.- however the competitive side of me kicked in and I never quit. I kept running on a daily basis. I am proud to say that today, I look like a completely different person. In a span of two months, I have achieved my goal in looking in a way where I feel beautiful and more self-confident. You can see for yourself in the photo to the left…the pic on the left is me the first of June. The pic on the right is me as of two days ago. The other photo on the right is just to show the progress that has been made.

The biggest challenge I faced was making the change to revise my thinking. I was the type that tended to “settle” and always feared I was never good enough. (This goes for everything) I constantly worried about if I was “cool” enough of if people thought I was a complete weirdo. Don’t get me wrong I do still face this challenge today; however I am already 100 times better than what I was. Anyways, once again, the lightbulb came on and I realized the way I was thinking was completely stu-pidddd as Uncle Si from Duck Dynasty would say. First of all, I realized that I should never settle for something because I felt like I did not deserve something better. Secondly, I should not worry so much what people thought about me. Like the saying goes, “haters gonna hate.” I knew that I had to get off the kick of trying to please everyone and start making sure I was looking out for myself some. The bottom line was instead of worrying what others thought, I needed to concentrate solely on the being the Christian I needed to be and loving myself.

I think the one of the biggest influences in changing my way of thinking came from a quote I saw on good ole’ Facebook. It said, “Always remember that somewhere in the world, there is a little girl who wants to be just like you.” This really hit home because if the people who looked to me as a role model really knew how low I was on my own self, they definitely would not be calling me a person they wanted their daughter to be like. I’ve got a younger sister, younger cousins and very close friends who really did think I was someone they could look to as an example. With this in mind, I knew that a change needed to be made. It has been difficult because there are days I want to revert back into my old ways of thinking; however the difference it has made in my happiness has been incredible. Since I am giving myself more credit, happy with the way I was living life and happy with myself, I have become even more personable and have even let that sense of humor I often keep bottled inside out. I now feel I have fully came out of my shell and seriously do not let the thoughts of others affect the way I act. It is definitely a work in progress, but I know I can continue to improve.

The last topic I really wanted to discuss was knowing what I deserve. No more of this thinking that I can never be good enough. I’m just going to be blunt and say that I am always going to be good enough. I’ve accomplished more in my life that I could have ever imagined. Winning outstanding freshman in the school of agriculture my sophomore year of college, winning the senior excellence in agriculture award my senior year in college, winning the Citizen Scholar Award which is awarded to the top six students of the entire Missouri State University student body, getting my entire graduate school paid for because of the character and hard work I displayed in my undergrad career, the list goes on and on. I am definitely not trying to be boastful by any means; however I just want to remind myself of these things to prove that I do deserve the best. These are things I should never be ashamed of because people may call me a nerd or whatever. This is something I believe everyone always sells themselves short. I have learned to realize that you should never settle with anything less of what you deserve. We all deserve the best. Please, please remember that!

I definitely do not want to come across that I’ve turned into a selfish, too-good for anyone, miss goodie two shoes type of girl. No, no and no. I have just learned to accept and be proud of my accomplishments, as well as be confident in myself to always know what I deserve. I’m always going to be the laid back, easy-going (well most of the time) type of girl who can get along with just about anybody. I’m still the same person, I’m just now more vocal and quicker to realize when I should step up and say what I feel. I’m not afraid to admit that I am different and that there are not a lot people like me. (Which honestly, is totally cool!) I now don’t try to be someone I’m not just to impress. Now, I am striving to by myself and realizing that the people who accept me for who I am are the ones who will have a spot in my life. Once again, we all need to remember this.

I also couldn’t leave out this. I am so, so, so blessed to have an amazing family. My parents, sisters, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, etc. are truly the best. They have influenced and inspired me in so many ways. I also have the best circle of friends everrr! I also cannot forget to mention those I work with at Missouri State as well as all my other employers. There are no words to describe how lucky I really am!

This has honestly been one of my harder blogs to write. It is never easy telling the world about some of the major problems I’ve faced. However, I do want to remind that the entire point of this post was to serve as an inspiration for others who may be facing the same battles.

In closing, I want to leave a list of quotes I have turned to and have learned to incorporate into my life. Some I have just come across, some have been sent to me by some of my closest friends, some came from songs I heard on the radio and the last one is something I posted on Facebook (imagine that…I post on there ALL the time lol). So if you ever need some inspirational quotes, remember you can visit my blog to find them. I hope they influence you like they have influenced me.

  • “Don’t chase people. Be Yourself, do your own thing and work hard. The right people -the ones who really belong in your life- will come to you. And stay.” -Will Smith
  • “Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think. Not wonder. Not imagine. Not obsess. Just breathe and have faith that everything will work out for the best.” -Unknown
  • “For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips speak only words of kindness; and for poise walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.”
  • “If you ever feel like giving up, just remember there is a little girl watching who wants to be just like you. So don’t disappoint her.”
  • “You may never be good enough for some people, but you will always be the best for those who deserve you.”
  • “Always know the difference between what you’re getting and what you deserve.”
  • “What is meant to be will always find its way.” Everything happens for a reason
  • “Life is too short to be anything but happy.”
  • Just have faith!
  • “There’s nothing you face today that you and God cannot handle together.”
  • I may not wear a size zero, drive a fancy car, own a bunch of “cool” things or be a girl who wears her heart on her sleeve and lets her feelings show. However, I will say I’m a unique individual and even though sometimes I march to the beat of a different drum, I am so happy and proud of who I am no matter what anyone says or does to me. I’ve got a loving God above me who has blessed me beyond measure, the best family and friends a girl can ask for, a future that is looking brighter every day, the chance to have been born and raised on a farm and the opportunity of pursuing a career/education in an industry I am very passionate about. Sorry for the lengthy post, but this has really come to mind these past few days. (If you’re ever feeling down, remember this!) I am so lucky and so, so blessed!!!!! -Yours Truly 🙂

And the most important quote of all that has helped me on a daily basis-

“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” Phillipians 4:13

This is just a very short list of some quotes that have made my “Quotes to Live By” list. I hope you also find them helpful! Yes this blog has been lengthy, but I feel so accomplished after writing it. I truly hope it can serve as an inspiration for others.

Until next time, God Bless You All!!!

~Ali

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